I resonate with a lot of this and have been reflecting on my relationship with time. Yesterday while out with a friend, I shared how even though I’ve been “away” from grind culture the last few years, I still find myself acting out. Rushing for no reason. Demanding so much of my time as if quantity trumps quality when it comes to my various pursuits. Lately I’ve been giving myself the permission to slow down, to not set a clock, to not speed walk when I’m just walking to the store, to just be. It’s a day by day work in progress. Sometimes I get it right and others I get it wrong. Again, thank you and I enjoyed listened to you read this piece!
I completely understand the “old ways” creeping back in, especially when everything around us encourages it. Our relationship to the clock is an important component in redefining time. As a Black woman, I am so grateful you’re nurturing yourself with slowing down. You deserve to take your time.
What you said about in your own body and your own home— yep. I have moments of feeling so much pressure and then get curious and feel how tense certain parts of my body are like what the fuck am I clenching, holding, forcing, rushing for…… slowing down IS THE WORK AS MUCH AS THE OTHER THINGS. Being safe and home and in peace inside our body❤️ first. Foremost.
I think we often assume the work means action, but sometimes stillness is the work too. I’m with you: To being safe, at home and in peace inside our bodies. 💕
I love this. I've only recently realised how I've lived my entire life feeling rushed, like time is slipping away from me and that each minute that passes in which I am not achieving something is a moment failed. You're so right, it is an immense learning process! I'm so glad you were able to recognise what was happening and slow down.
I know we aren’t the only ones! We are all conditioned to feel like failures for not producing like machines. I choose an organic timeline. Sending you encouragement along your path of redefining time. 💕
This was a on time read, Chazen! (Pardon the pun)
I resonate with a lot of this and have been reflecting on my relationship with time. Yesterday while out with a friend, I shared how even though I’ve been “away” from grind culture the last few years, I still find myself acting out. Rushing for no reason. Demanding so much of my time as if quantity trumps quality when it comes to my various pursuits. Lately I’ve been giving myself the permission to slow down, to not set a clock, to not speed walk when I’m just walking to the store, to just be. It’s a day by day work in progress. Sometimes I get it right and others I get it wrong. Again, thank you and I enjoyed listened to you read this piece!
I completely understand the “old ways” creeping back in, especially when everything around us encourages it. Our relationship to the clock is an important component in redefining time. As a Black woman, I am so grateful you’re nurturing yourself with slowing down. You deserve to take your time.
What you said about in your own body and your own home— yep. I have moments of feeling so much pressure and then get curious and feel how tense certain parts of my body are like what the fuck am I clenching, holding, forcing, rushing for…… slowing down IS THE WORK AS MUCH AS THE OTHER THINGS. Being safe and home and in peace inside our body❤️ first. Foremost.
I think we often assume the work means action, but sometimes stillness is the work too. I’m with you: To being safe, at home and in peace inside our bodies. 💕
I love this. I've only recently realised how I've lived my entire life feeling rushed, like time is slipping away from me and that each minute that passes in which I am not achieving something is a moment failed. You're so right, it is an immense learning process! I'm so glad you were able to recognise what was happening and slow down.
I know we aren’t the only ones! We are all conditioned to feel like failures for not producing like machines. I choose an organic timeline. Sending you encouragement along your path of redefining time. 💕